addicted

so, i think i may have a problem...otherwise known as addiction.

i am addicted to Starbucks, and anything related to Starbucks.

i can't go one day without getting a drink from there; sometimes, two; i have yet to hit three.

i'm trying my best to control this addiction, but it's really hard, especially since they're literally EVERYWHERE i go.

maybe i should fast starbucks for a while.

room for debate.

every time i want to buy something for myself that i don't need, i always have to think realllllly long and hard about it. for weeks on end. i like to browse things online when i'm bored at work, and sometimes i'll click my size, fill out the shipping info, and then when i get to the credit card part, i "X" out of my box. HAHAH. i ALWAYS do that when i look at stuff online. i guess it's good that i'm not an impulsive decision maker, because i'd have all this crap for myself that i'd end up regretting.



Lately, God's been reaffirming my belief that there is no coincidence with Him. everything that happens in my life is planned and predestined, according to His will--just gotta trust, you know? I was really stressed out the beginning of January because i knew my current job would be cutting my hours to only 5 a week...and making minimum wage, that don't cover nothing! So, for an entire week, i couldn't get much sleep and didn't eat; i even didn't go to vegas with my family because i was so stressed out. But, after that week, i felt a calmness come over me. i didn't know why at that time, but i just wasn't stressed anymore. i felt like everything was going to be ok. i felt like God was going to provide, and that i just needed to trust Him--and He has provided. It's not by coincidence. It's not by chance. It's by God's grace. Thank You.

intentions

here i am, at your feet, in my brokenness complete.

i want to be broken, so that i may be intentional.

intentional with my faith and relationship with God.

I have learned that i cannot expect others to give, without me giving first; this must also be intentional.

if being broken means i come closer to understanding the depth of God's love and sacrifice, then break me.

break me so that i am forced to give all the pieces to Him, to fix and mend, because i cannot be mended if i am not giving God the broken pieces.

You are my Healer.

Make me intentional.