home stretch

i cannot believe that it's july, 2009. as i head into the last month of my stay in korea, all i can think about is how fast time has passed, especially these last 5 months. i really cannot comprehend that it's July 1st. 25 more days. i've been spending a lot of time by myself, just thinking; journaling; reading; qt-ing. i'm trying to piece together the puzzle of my year long journey here, and it's not as easy as i thought it would be--nothing ever really is. i've been dreaming about what it would be like to finally start getting ready to go home along with actually being home. i'm hoping the real thing is way better than what i've imagined it to be. now, it's really time to wrap things up. this chapter is coming to an end. 25 more days.

on a lighter note--this weather has been kicking my butt. it's so humid, i can't stand it, to the point where i'm wearing dresses and skirts. haha. i miss so cal summers, that's for sure. i'm also down to just 1 tutoring gig. the two brothers decided to take a break for the month of july/summer, which is more than ok with me. more than the money, i have time to just soak in my last moments here and run any necessary errands after school. or just simply relax.

one of the greatest things in korea is their home food delivery. i've mentioned before how freaking awesome it is, so before i leave, i want to abuse this blessing as much as possible before it's too late. but, i hate how some places always go to the building behind me. it's like half of the places get it right, the other half doesn't and they get all mad because they've been honking their annoying horn for the last 10 minutes at the wrong building. not my fault, right?

saying goodbye has never been easy for me. i wonder how things will turn out this time around.

25 days.

the big 2-1

my birthday has come and gone, and i am now a year older. it's kinda not as fun turning 21 in korea since i'm already allowed to drink here, but once i get back, i know there'll be a lot of "birthday" drinks to catch up on. i had a good time celebrating my birthday, and i was very thankful for everyone who provided me with their company, which is all i could ask for. but, nonetheless, i hope i never have to spend another birthday away from home ever again.

time is ticking. i have 42 days left in the motherland, which equals only 6 weekends to accomplish my remaining goals. gotta visit family, play with friends, maybe a mini weekend trip, and lots of eating. i can't wait.

i've lost sight of god. i stopped fearing Him, and started fearing being alone. i wasn't afraid of losing god, but instead, i was afraid of losing people because i thought it meant that i would have to stand on my own two feet. i've let go of some things and people which has been one of the hardest things i've ever had to do, but, if it means that i'll be on the path back to glorifying god, then it's all worth it.

there's just so much racing through my head. so many things to take care of before i head back. i've decided to spend the next 6 weeks the way i spent my first 6 months here--by myself. slowly but surely.

6 weeks suckas